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[Apr. 8th, 2005|12:33 am] |
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| | immij - faithfully | ] |
YO!!
my internets been busted for the past couple of nights. damn technology these days. totally hard not using the internet (except at school). but WOO!!
i havent made an entry since days before spring break. 2 weeks ago?
anyway, few things have happened during the passed two weeks.
spring break -
-mom came back from the philippines
-im in dani roses cotillion now.?
-watched saw
-new tracks with ernest
-introduced to beat making
-frisco
-shopping
-chilled with the homies and home-ettes
-won 4 scholarships - washington hospital ($1000), st. rose hospital ($1000), knights of columbus ($250), jeff curson memorial ($250) ----- extremely grateful to the sponsors and those who took the time to write me recommendation letters. i owe you guys some cookies or something. haha.
-r.i.p. pope john paul II / joseph dizon
-financial letter from USF --- from $40,000 plus about an $8,000 grant, and some more financial aid added up to be $21,000. plus scholarships. its goin down! yes...
i totally felt like this was gonna be a lonnnngg entry. oh well...
upcoming events -
-open house for USF this saturday
-peforming at pasta night @ logan
-cotillion practices
-no prom... no senior trip...
-forensics state tournament
-dads birthday (22nd) |
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[Mar. 23rd, 2005|11:54 pm] |
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| | whatever my fingers play on the piano | ] |
whats up with this weather...
lately, i've felt as if my world has gotten the best of me and i cant do anything about it. im a living robot.
'hey joel. i was wondering if you could do this for me."
"sure"
'hey dude. you think you can help me out with this"
"of course."
'joel, if youre not busy, do you wanna do this?"
"no problem."
can't i ever say no? can i not care what other people think? can i not continuously try to satisfy other people when it risks satisfying my own self? i call it humility. but it comes to a point where the thin line between humility and self-destruction cross. am i happy with what i do? or do i just say i am to make other people feel better... |
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[Mar. 20th, 2005|08:56 pm] |
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so far i've had the house to myself for about 4 nights last week. it was great.! and boring... really, you would think that it would be awesome not having parents over for a while, but it gets kinda dull. but nevertheless, i enjoyed it!
nothing exciting happened... or so i think... but the weekend was cool
friday - had my first practice with LMA at a dance studio in fremont. we got kicked out after 20 minutes of practicing cuz a class was going to use it. so we went to dereks house. it was only mike, tep and i at practice cuz we didnt know some of the routines. it was fun! i guess. hehe. then there was another practice at 9 at the studio again cuz thats the time we could use it. so everyone was there! iya, noy, jon, tep, mike, derek, angela. practiced till about 11:30. it was exciting! then i drove home. but then i got a call saying that everyone wanted to watch the ring 2. so i said.. YEAH!
the ring 2! WOO!. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. it was aiiite. personally, i thought it was better than the first one, just cuz i kinda understand whats goin on cuz the first ring gave you background of what happened... and it wasnt as slow as the first one. still scared the bugeebuzz outta me when i got home..
man, those visuals were stuck in my head for hours. i tried talking to people, but then again i thought, "who would be awake at 2 in the morning?" so i went online to see who was. and maryl was online, and so i rambled to get my mind off the movie. and she kinda made it worse right before she signed off.=/ yikes. (i slept with the light on).
saturday - shopping with my dad! WOO! we went to valley fair cuz my dad had to return some shoes. i actually had money on me this time! i havent bought anything in the longest time. so i kinda splurged that day. first, i bought some jeans from aero. not just any jeans, a good 20 bucks, 'regular fit' jeans.. meaning, theyre not as baggy as the ones im used to wearing. im kinda losing that whole mainstream hiphop attire and just going into an urban style. a lot cheaper also! then hit the timberland store for some 2 for $30 shirts. kinda outta my budget. but hey, i had some money! i bought 2 shirts... after that, we went to great mall for some more shopping. went to zumies and bought a green track-ish jacket. another sale item adding up to a whopping $30. then hit up wilsons leather and bought a watch. $30 plus an additional 50% off all watches. so it came up to about 16 bucks! DAMN!
then got home. wore my new pants. new jacket. new watch. and off to church! noy needed help altar serving. and right after masss would be fr. dante's farewell party/dinner/dance thing. so i came dressed for the performance. i finally performed! it was hella funny. i believe we were scheduled to perform at around 7-7:30. but mike didnt get off work till about 830, so we all had to stall. someone brought up the idea that the girls should try to teach fr. dante some of the routine from their dance. it was funny! mike finally came, and we started dancing. it was tiiight! adrenaline was everywhere. it was great. no more B squad for me. its official.
after, went to jasons. chilled. kinda got bored and tired. then went home. good night overall.
sunday - was the most dead day ever. i was about to go out, but then it started raining. so i stayed home. the weather made me lazy and sleepy. ugh! I hate rain. i apologize for those people out there who love it. but i just hate the rain right now cuz its supposed to be sunny, today was the first day of spring! it sure didnt feel like it. i got kinda mad at the weather. haha. |
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[Mar. 19th, 2005|10:43 pm] |
im at jason's house!
we're bored. |
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[Mar. 13th, 2005|08:08 pm] |
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whuddup people.
had a great weekend. and have a great week ahead of me.
yesterday was national quals. top two of the tournament goes to nationals in philly in june.
AH!! it was a tad bit nerve racking. but all went well. took 1st in duo and 2nd in di. everyone did cooo.
logan took 10 out of the 13 possible slots.
tentative list of heads goin to nationals -
humorous interp -
shane
nathaniel
dramatic interp -
nico
roberta
duo interp -
alex and joel
john and allen
extemps -
aj
bonan
oratory -
yiuven
raja
the tournament ended pretty early in sf. after we got back, tran, nathaniel, raja, alex, allen, john, bj, shane, and i went to fuddruckers to just kinda celebrate and chill cuz the night was still young. AH! i broke my lenten sacrifice. i ate a BURGER. oh well, lent is 40 days long. but in all actuality, it's actually 44 days on the calendar. so i have 4 days of freedom! haha... after eating, the rest went home, and allen, john, bj, shane, and i went to karts-n-golf to go race some go karts. but when we got there, the workers said the karts were closed. damn. so we went to the pool hall down by wendys. haha, we looked like hustlers - still in our slacks and dress shoes, dress shirt tucked out, sleeves rolled up, collars up and open. but mann... we do suck though. it took us a good half an hour to play one game... haha, it was hella fun. i felt very macho that day... eating burgers... playing pool... uhhh... public speaking tournament? oh yess.. and girls... ok fine.. one girl. ok, it was only tran. we're pathetic. hehe.
then today i went to the north face outlet to cop some backpacks cuz my backpack is worn out. straight black ones are hard to find there, so all i could get my hands on were 2 packs - 1 grey/black 'domain' [$17] and 1 white/grey/black 'slingshot'[27]. i only wanted ONE. but i couldnt decide on which. so i got both... oh! and i cant forget my 6 dollar skull cap.
mom left on thursday for the philippines. for her children's graduation, and i think she's coming back on the... 30th of march? i think so. so its just the men here in the house. but tuesday - thursday, my pops is leaving for sacramento for some business training. hmm.. what to do...
LMA performance this saturday? woo!
alicia keys f/ john legend at the paramount theatre on the 20th! but i dont have tickets.. damn |
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[Mar. 10th, 2005|10:30 pm] |
why was it one of those beautiful days ever?
weather-wise i mean.
damn, the sun made me happy.
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[Mar. 6th, 2005|09:23 pm] |
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| | not maroon 5... | ] |
sooooo.... uhm.... version 1.0 aka bahypnofunk.... practicing at the house. 
last night was crazy.
i got home at about 1am from bahypnofunk practice. damn i was tired.
woke up at 6 the next morning getting ready for the state qualifying tournament. Ah. hella hard to get outta bed.
so i competed DI and DUO. sleeping in AND between rounds. alex told me i had bags under my eyes while i was performing. haha.
its alrite. we both qualed in our events.
it was about to strike 745 when i recieved my trophies rushed outta the
mpr at alvarado. it turns out i had 18 missed calls.. i sped to neils
house to pick him up, sped to my house to change, get some stuff, and
we were off to MARYS! WOO!
i was excited. anxious.
so we were up on stage doin our sound checks. everything was
soundinging pretty well. the plan was, i was gonna start it off singing
'in my life' by the beatles while lodelle did a light beat with mary
and jason brown in the center slow dancing. isn't that sweet? hah, not
when we did it.
i was in the middle of my song. playing the keyboard and singing at the
same time, when all of a sudden, after i finish the first chorus, the
keyboard just cuts off. 'uhhhh....' turns out the
wire busted. so we tried other wires, but they werent cooperating !
holy pop tarts.. we ended up micing the keyboard. end i started singing
and playing all over... sigh...
so that was that. not SO bad... next up, was the one WE actually PRACTICED. - maroon 5 - this love.
i was expecting this one to be better.
so im playing the melodic intro and what not. then everybody jams in at
the next 8 count. so its pretty much rockin the house. and then it
comes to the part where we all stop playing and neil begins to
sing.......... neil missed it...!
neil - "whoa! was that it! we'll do this one more time ladies and gentlemen! that was a warm up"
oh neil... u make me laugh.. haha.
and then, the sound wasnt very fulfilling. my keyboard, the guitars,
were everywhere. maybe if we had more time to do soundcheck we wouldve
sounded better. HAHAHAHA>. man, i didnt feel very cool after
performing. but thanks for playin bass, larsen. drums. lodelle. mike.
guitar. neil. forgetting lines. haha. sorry mary... hAppy birthday!
i ended leaving kinda early. i didnt really feel like going to the
afterparty, wasnt really feeling the whole party moodiness. it wasnt
our performance that killed my mood. i dont really know what it was.
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[Mar. 4th, 2005|01:14 am] |
we always say we're friends
but words are just words
we never do nothin cuz our feelings are blurred
so insecure
about keepin the trust
on the real, i just wanted to keep talking and see wsup
so spell it: f -r-i-e-n-d-s
nothin in, nothin out, nothin more, nothing less
i just wanna get shit ish offa my chest
baby you know i still care, but im sick of makin moves
my life ain't music, its no feeling
no groove
what you got left to prove
is keepin it now
maybe we'll be together someday.... just ask the crowd
do you remember the times we shared
we cared
but then again too scared
too unprepared
to even think "are we fallin..."
when you're listenin to the wrong conscience calling.
damn girl
we couldve had a relationship here,
but we were too caught up in our adolescent fears
won't risk gettin hurt, harmed
scarred, broken
now you left me with your own unwanted emotions
that were afraid to let shine
and i say
that im fine
im fine
im fine.
but deep down im really still hurtin. |
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[Mar. 1st, 2005|10:47 pm] |
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| | andrey silva - forevermore | ] |
rock on guys! had practice at lodelles today.
i thought he said to be at his house by 4. so i thought i was giving neil a ride, so i went to mcdonalds to catch a late lunch and waiting for his call. i called him, and linelle, for some reason, had his phone and said that he was at practice. so neil calls me from his parents' phone and said to just pick him up at his house. "ok". so i was hella speeding cuz i didnt wanna waste practice time....
so there we were in the car. neil in the passengers seat. electric guitar, amp, and keyboard in the backseat. acoustic guitar and keyboard stand in the trunk. ZOOM.!
got there the same time mike did. so we unloaded everything and made our way toward lodelles driveway.
"hey, i think those are lodelles parents"
"are they??"
"oh yeah, i remember that car. dude, turn around! theyre gonna think we're weird.!"
(walking walking walking.)
turns out lodelle wasnt home yet. we didnt wanna make a bad impression just walking into the house without him. it'll make us look thugs. with big instruments. so just in case one of us goes out with geralyn, her parents wont hate us. (sorry dude, your sisters great. lol)
then about 5 minutes later, lodelle and geralyn get there. we sure did look lost.
practice was cool. we sounded pretty gimpy at first, but as the minutes passed, we got it together. |
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[Mar. 1st, 2005|10:29 pm] |
i just realized that everytime i write in this it wakes me up.
interesting. i used to think that writing was a mean of relxation but
to me, its stimulating. i was talking to mr lindsey today. that man is
wise as hell... hes.... hella wise,
i guess you would say. i enjoy conversations with him, because he often
sees things in me that is totally blind to my eyes. from what he's
observed me of during the past four years, he said that i never please
myself. (true). im always caught up in trying to please others
(true). im scared to speak. i mean, of course it's easy to talk
to someone and make a conversation etc, etc,. but what it comes to conversations saying how i feel as a human being.. i feel that i'm
scared to speak to someone because im afraid they won't care what i have to say, even though i what i have to say may not be so important at all. just an outlet to lift things off my chest. lift some weight off my shoulders.(true). afraid of rejection i guess? iono. he also touched upon
me being real. i dont know what that is... singing/dancing -
people judge on what they see and hear, and what i do when im on stage
or what not. but performance doesnt allow me to show my insides enough.
on the real, i dont really know who i am anymore.. i put up so many
fronts now that i cant tell which is genuine and which is just an
illusion. im scared.
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[Feb. 27th, 2005|12:46 am] |
SIOPAO SOULJAz - "untitled tracks"
ernest "ernalicious" capalla in collaboration with joel "j-diddy" armamento
ynawmsayn!
IM me for the track... |
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[Feb. 25th, 2005|11:58 pm] |
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| |  relieved | ] |
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| | next phaze / 6th day | ] |
halo-halo night was off the hook!!! thanks ms. b for letting me perform.. it was definitely a good turn out.
next phaze and 6th. day.. hot diggity ! my idols. right mike?
national anthem was cool. thanks ya'll for cheering me on. i needed the
support, and it carried through the performance... even though i did
butcher my tagalog.
 
OMG!! they said "good
performance"....
autographs...
wow.... means so much coming from them.
it was a great night. great performances. got to help solicit for mom's
children of mercy charity dealy. thanks jermaine for helping out. meant
a lot to us. mannn... now im inspired.
 
ernest chillin next phaze.
....homeboy ernest
with 6th day
(sigh of relief) - this night was just what i needed to relax and just be overjoyed for a while.
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[Feb. 24th, 2005|11:30 pm] |
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| | awake | ] |
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| | stevie wonder | ] |
thanks for agreeing to drum for us, lodizzle.! we have a good 1 week...
halo halo night tomorrow! my tagalog is hella bad. my mom says i sound
like a white boy when i sing the national anthem. oh well. i'll get an
A for effort.
our aps presentation was
better than expected today. mr hanson was feelin my ice cream analogy
about presidency. (we were proposing to change the whole natural born
law to be president)
joel - it's like walking into baskin robbins and the workers force you to get vanilla ice cream.
hanson - vanillas my favorite ice cream. you just insulted my ice cream.
joel - ok... uhh.... chocolate.
hanson - go on..
joel - sooo... what if u wanted strawberry??? NO! the employees wont
let you. However, we need the freedom to choice ice cream just as we
need the freedom to choose which president we want, no matter what
race, or where they were born, and so on..
hanson - ohhhhhh, so its choice.
group - exactly.
hanson - i LOVE your presentation! it was gooood..
hell yeah.
finished my kaiser application just now. due tomorrow! ahhh.. better right on time than never.
just had our sleep/consciousness unit test in psych 2. one of my favorite units of the year.
recent dreams -
1) (insert name here) pushed
me up against the lockers and started kissing me. YES! she started it..
- yeah, kinda thinking about her during the past weekend..
interesting dream.
2) i was at safeway in the frozen food section. i was tempted to steal
some chocolate icecream, and so i hid it under my jacket. karen joshi
passed by and waved. i put the ice cream back.
3) alone in an big empty house. i felt ... relaxed, but a bit scared. i
was in the bathroom and people started coming in.. so i couldnt go pee.
4) teacher caught me kissing someone. totally embarassed and turned red like i always do.
5) the dog i had that ran away came back to my backyard and was happy
to see me. it was smaller than usual, nicely groomed. but i was
hesitant to touch it like i didnt wanna get too attached with it. but i
end up petting it anyway.
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[Feb. 23rd, 2005|12:21 am] |
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| | lonely | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 311 - love song | ] |
turning in scholarships in last minute left and right.... and i mean,
literally last minute... the day that its due - 2 minutes before the
post office closes... yikes. not good.
just got home from the berkeley tournament last night. for some reason
i wasn't tired. while everyone else was knocked out on the bus, i was
just sitting there admiring the poor upholstery on the bus seats.
tournament was enjoyable overall. started off the night before the
tournament rooming with 4 black men. and hot butternut damn! all that
laughing relieved my tension on the the tournament the next morning.
this was one of the few overnighters ive actually had fun and be
successful at the same time. made it to finals in di and duo. felt SO
GOOD performing in front of all those people. probably one of the first
final rounds i've been in that had as large an audience as about 200.
took 5th and 4th place. finally got the shiney plates i've wanted for
the past four years. the team as a whole did pretty well. no champions
though. but some strange reason we didn't win the sweepstakes due to
some "new system" of sweepstakes accumulation. oh well.
i was reading through my ballots from the tournament today. tell why a
judge from centinniel high school during my semi-final round stated,
"btw. my student wants to rape you. she's sitting right next to me".
flattering. in a very eerie sense of way. a lil too much there, mr.
judge.
now im sitting in my seat studying for my APS test tomorrow. damn constitution.
tell me why after my mom and i finishing submitting our FAFSA
application, the expected family contribution was more than 40,000?
that's not even how much my college would be!
im starting to feel so alone nowadays. it's like, i have so many things goin for me, but i really have no one to share it with.
parents - great supporters. love both of them to death. but they dont understand how much the things i do mean to me.
friends - love all u guys. youre all great. but i dont wanna take time
out of your guys lives just to make myself feel better and splurge in
happiness.
i guess i just want someone there who understand how much i take pride in what i do and value it with all my heart.
thanks marielle. i know you dont read this shit so i can talk
about you all i want! ehh, youre not worth talking about... j/k!
but really though. what you said made me feel better. =)
late |
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[Feb. 17th, 2005|11:29 pm] |
dammit...
february
17 - Senior skit - dancer
18-21 - CAL invitational - dramatic interp/duo interp
25 - Halo Halo Night @ JLHS - 7:00pm
National Anthem
march
5 - State Qualifiers -duo interp/dramatic interp
Mary G's Cotillion [envis1on gig]
10- parents leave for philippines
12 - National Qualifiers - duo interp/dramatic interp
27 - Debut "Halo-Halo Spesyal USA" on the mabuhay channel.
"u remind me" -usher
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[Feb. 17th, 2005|09:13 pm] |
i had no idea how skit would turn out.
as each practice went by this week, it just started coming together just like that. (snap)
and it finally finished.
it was off the hook...most fun i had in a long time, because i usually
sing or do speeches in frotn of people, but rarely do i get to dance.
man... im gonna miss all ya'll when this year ends. but we started off one of our last senior activities with a bang
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[Feb. 9th, 2005|12:09 pm] |
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im at school right now in room 408.
2 minutes till the bell rings... |
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[Feb. 7th, 2005|11:27 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | stevie wonder - lately | ] |
wsup ya'll...
i finally got a chance to watch ray on dvd, and lemme tell ya'll... its amazing.
jaime foxx was off the hook in his role as ray charles. His life story
is truly incredible has given me a deeper appreciation of music and
musicians. i dont know what else to say! the way he was able to break
down every obstacle he had..independent.. he knew his goals, a
perfectionist i'd say. he didnt let his disability make him anymore
inferior, but he used it as his own way of seeing the world - through
sound and music.. i can finally answer one of those random questions
when someone would ask, "if you could meet anyone, dead or alive, past
or present, who would it be?"
ray charles - musical genius.
after the emmaus meeting at 10, had nothing else to do. i got
jim to sign all my recommendation letters for a bunch of scholarships,
so were ready to mail them out tomorrow.
went ice skating!! with linelle, allison, mitchell, noy, neil, and lodelle.
hella fun. havent stepped out on the ice since i probably was about 10.
occasional slips and off-balance stumbles, but i didnt fall!
poor neil... its aite, it was cute when linelle was teaching you how to move forward...
.... and how she caught you everytime you fell.. you're very tenacious neil, goot shit. keep it up!
quite i work out. legs still feel kinda wobbly.
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[Feb. 5th, 2005|12:22 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bored | ] |
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| | i feel like breakdancing | ] |
the last semester of my high school career is pretty much chill...
2) APS - Hansen
3) World Lit - Bobadilla
4) Guitar - Karllin
5) Psych 2 - McCullough
6) Lunch
7) "Instructional Aid" - Lindsey
8) Oral Interpretation: Forensics - Lindsey
schools great now.
tons of scholarships to do though.
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